Sometimes, when the night has come, when I sat in the corner staring into nothing, there was one thought flickered in the back of brain of mine. Lastly, it has become a habit of mine, sitting in the corner staring at nothing while mulling over things that had happened.
When I sat there in the corner gazing at nothing, my mind often come up with thought of wanting to just tie you down to my own self so you won't and you can't leave me. Sometimes, the selfish part of mind thought to just drag you back and tied you up, so you won't walked away again, so you wont have left me hurt and bleeding all over again. The other side, the shameless part of me wanting me to beg so that you will stay and wont leave my side ever again. I love you too much that my crazy mind thought to just kill you so that no other people can have you.
But then again, the bit of sane part of my insanity whispering softly that I shall let you be free. I shall let you go so that when you come to love me, your love wont be forced. So when you come to love me again this time, you will love me the way I am.
I already took you for granted once. And now I have to try hard to have your love again.
I already hurt you and made you cry almost all the time.
The way you used to be smiling and happy for little things I did for you. I took your love for granted that day.
If set you free will make you smiling again, make you back to your loving self, then I'll be more than happy that way than tied you to my side.
When times later come, for me to be given your love again, that time I'll keep it in my deepest heart, treasure it like no other did. Because you, my beloved, is too precious to me.
You, my beloved, held my whole heart. And still held it till I took my breath for the last time.
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